What Doesn't Kill?

this is how i feel..

2010-02-06T00:53:00.003+08:00

you and me......

tired..just came back..work was abit hard for me.stupid albert trust me with buggy.why cant it be sumone else.jealousy face around the senior was thr.i hate to be the guy that they are jealous of.wtf! i came in tired but the special part start so soon.she came down with her clothes wet and that was like 2 mins of private time that we had and it boost me up like hell.dunoe y.sumtime i think to myself that will i fall for her.?i even felt jealous when i saw her with benn.wtf!but things are so complicated now.she caught me lookin at her.haha.sorry.ok let me tell u wat i feel.its this attracted feeling i have,it keeps on growing.if singapore have that kind of grass field which is on the above picture,i will take u thr..whr no one will c us.whr we cn spend our time knowing each other much closer.pfft! like real eh.i really like u girl.seriously.dunoe wat to say already..end here la.mcm no mood gitu.

u r the cutest thing for me.i like the way u smile.the peace sign u make with ur both hand at the video.ur blurr face..

will i ever get the chance.?.?.?.?.?

ariff!!how stupid can u get??

2010-02-05T01:16:00.002+08:00

today.eh wait.yesterday.tak tahu ah..work was ok.im supposed to start at 10 am and i set my alarm time at 745am..and i set 4 alarm and guess wad,i woke up at 1153am.like wtf rite.then called boss and he ask to come at 4pm.came to work,go pavilion do some steaming and then came back club house and do dinner.it was aite,not tat fun because i was outside doin food runner so didnt get to see her much.haha.end at 9pm.took bus home.and whats fucked up was when i on my com.hav to update alot of things.my ns la.my hotmail.and strangely there was a great relieve when she msn me.haha.wtf??msn me??i didnt know what is that called la..she said ''working tmrw??''..and we go on chatting.after she updated her blog i went and read it and ask one stupid question which make me look so dumb..dammit..i didnt know she was referring to me but its damn sweet.well i hope she'll b smilling tomorrow.kinda miss the decent 'i dunnoe you' face.haha

i feel like im waiting for something that isn't goin to happen..
nice quote u got there...

its like freaking two years...

2010-02-04T01:20:00.006+08:00

before

after
wadduppp!!!!! damn.life is messed up now.believe me two years and alot have happened.both good and bad.but hey think positive man.life has to move on.but i hav to try hard.its been a long time since i last bog and i found out that blogging wasn't my thing but for now i dun hav that sumone to talk to.alot of things have happened but if i were to talk about all the things,it wouldnt end and i have to slp early coz working babe tmrw!!.but im gonna talk about a recent incident that happen.actually not talk about it but i just wanna let you know my side of story.i mean even if u dun read this,its ok but i just wanna let things out.tell me sumting,am i being too paranoid over things.its like barely one week that we know each other. the thing is i really like you but i dun wan anything from u.by saying that i dun wan anything from u,i also dun wan an awkward feeling between us.just because i confess doesnt mean we cnt be normal friends.and wat do you mean by attracted doesnt mean forever.yeah im not gonna be attracted to you forever but for sure its not gonna be for a short while.i actually doesnt know wat to do.neither do i know what i wan.but i dun wan that awkward feeling between us.its frustrating.damn.just dun be angry at me if i were to say sumtin wrong aite.well then hv to slp.end here!!

to my beloved!!

2008-07-17T01:41:00.003+08:00

Hello!!its my bdae!!haha..im 17!!i just came bc frm my 14 hrs of werk at sentosa...damn tiring...haha..but fun la..met alot of new fren!!all fun ppl..so my bdae i have something to sae to some ppl that is in my life.i mean the one that mean something to me.

first for all my new fren i met at sentosa just now.u guys are great!!!fun ppl to werk with!!especially Eder.dun worie dude,big ppl doesnt mean they are awkward.infact u look great in that uniform.

to my beloved girlfren fizah.i love u so much girl.dun worie im a changed person.i wont treat u bad girl.im realie sorie for the past tat i've done u bad.u are the greatest girlfren.i promise u that i wont ever leave you.and u did promise me that u'll takecare of me till my dying days rite.hehe.i love u gerl.so much!!so much2 more than u.!!haha

to my sis.kak fa..u r great gerl.i love u !!.u help me alot in my life and i want to thank u so so much for helping.to kak yana, i wish we'll talk often like last time..i dun know what i've done wrong.maybe bcoz of ur sim card or other tings but im sorie k.to u both i wish the best of luck in life.jage hati mak k.dun worie i will try too.

to my cousins,boboi..haha.u are the cutest guy...i love u.thanks for spending time with me.acompanying me.thanks for everyting.to acap,haha.im sore once again for the tings i did to you that time.but i oso want to thank u for the time with me.its great.be more positive k cap.dun hate him so much.haha

to uncle,thanks for taking care of my mum and us...thank you for everyting.stabilizing my family life.i wish we would tok often.thanks again

to my mum.i love u mum!!.untuk mak ariff tulis malay la k..ariff mintak maaf bnyk2 atas kesalahan ariff.ariff tahu ariff bnyk salah.ariff sayang mak tau.mane la anak tak sayang mak..haha.k mak love u!!

2008-07-14T13:12:00.000+08:00

hello..its monday afternoon..i didnt went to my first job...im late and im having tooth ache for the past few days..its been worse...and i have no mood to write...

Sunday Evening!!

2008-07-13T19:19:00.002+08:00

hello..its 7 25pm on the sunday. today was abit tired.until i cant dance properly.we did low by florida and its damn difficult.then i got home with my cousin and slack awhile the went down to play badminton and soccer.tmrw im werking from 9 am to 12 in the midnight.haiz.confirm tired.werk at sentosa sumore.k la i got no mood to write.later!!

todays fact is,did u noe that secondhand serenade is not a band but a solo artist who name himself a band name.his real name is John-Vesely...peace!!

Saturday Afternoon!

2008-07-12T12:14:00.003+08:00

HELLO PPL!!! its the saturday afternoon!!haha..i haven bath yet from morning..haha..i got up and then went online to see whether that jason has updated his blog. his blog is like the best of blog seh.fucking funny.haha.aniwae my cousin firdaus overnight at my hse yesterday.later will be playing soccer with him.and kn i met on friendster my primary school crush.haha..shes so beautiful.haha.k la thats all..maybe at night i will write again.peace!!

2008-07-11T13:38:00.002+08:00

hello. i just finish eating mee. my mother cook for me. haiz yesterday night i had a hell night.wish it was a dream but it wasnt. later i have to go to MOE to get my entry proof for my private exam.after that i have to go to werk. haiz,pnat seh.today i abit lazy to write poem. maybe later when i came bc from werk.peace!!

todays fact is, do you know in 1980 plus,kids both male and female have to wear dress until they are 7 years old in england.thank you!

2008-07-10T01:45:00.002+08:00

hello!!haiz...just came back from werk...very tired...today i do waiter at FULLERTON HOTEL and the place is fullemak nye baik!!..haha...haiz...still couldnt get my c box up in here...nevrmind la...later morning i got exam!!!...my first oral paper!!! dammit tk blaja seh!!!...something hapen to me just now but i canot sae here la coz ini kan public.. abit confidential skit but i put some poem to make it up to it....try to guess wat it means k...here goes..

it felt like the old time
just like when we left off
i just couldnt control my mind
my heart just grow soft

i was that close to closing the deal
the feeling is almost gone
now it felt so real so so real
just went from off to on

take a hint lady
pls do take a hint
the only word to say is sorry
we all do sins

so go away and dont come back
u r just a pain in the ass
go on face the fact
what is history is past

peace yarl....and today fact is, a leech have 32 brains in it....peace!!

2008-07-08T04:04:00.000+08:00

hello!its my first post..haha..its 4 plus and im not sleepy yet..coz am a nite person...haha..i dun slp at nite..i never actualie like to blog but since theres so many ppl doing it...i'll give it a try....haha...but the thing is...i dunoe what to write now..haha...let me just write a poem for this entry..haha...coz i love ryhming words.so here goes....

its time to change
its time for a revolution
when at one point it felt pain
its means a wrong perception

what doesn't kill its makes you stronger
what doesn't kill can make you suffer

when you are in pain
you realise something its not right
it doesn't come close to your aim
or you don't win a fight

so speak up and say
whatever things is in your mind
coz hurting surely doesn't make your day
and hurt by you doesnt make mine

peace....
haha...its in the morning so my brain doesnt work that well..haha..aite, i dun wan to make tis a long entry so here i end...check out my everyday fact or jokes...i find it usefull...peace!!